Celibacy.

I took a vow of celibacy in February after I stopped seeing this guy that turned out to be a little ridiculous.  And to this day I have to say that I am not really missing sex.  Now, I have gotten plenty of offers for dating, I'm not going to lie, but I am really just disgusted by all men and I really don't want anything from them at the moment. This disgust I talk about is not being attracted to men because I find many men attractive at the moment, too many to count.  But when I think about their naked bodies on top of mine, the attraction just seems to disappear.  I seem to crawl into my own skin and try my hardest not to think about it.  Especially those fatties that are cute on the outside, but fluffy on the inside.  They don't excite me at all. 

I took a vow of celibacy from marriage when I was probably 10 years old.  At the same time that I decided to become a lawyer, I knew that I would be able to take care of myself and would not need a man to take care of me.  That vow was somewhat broken when I got engaged to the supposed "love of my life" but I never went through with the marriage.  I had three opportunities to get married and each time there was something wrong with the paperwork, so it never really got to that point.  I thank nature everyday that it never happened; I thank myself for never going through with it because I never want to get married. 

Celibacy can be described as the vow toward the state of abstinence and the vow of never getting married.  Marriage to me seems to antiquated, as I have said before, and I don't think it fits well in the 21st century.  But to take a vow of celibacy has meant that I am no longer interested in the opposite sex at all.  I don't need a man for anything and I am quite content with that predicament.  I have my family and my future to worry about.

 One day I may just want to have sex again, who knows.  But never will there be a time where I will be so devoted to a man that I would want to share my wealth with him. Furthermore, I think it has a lot to do with the way I feel about men in general.  Men today are so scared of any kind of commitment, it's completely unattractive.  I understand if boys want to fuck around and get their dicks taken care of by more than one person, but it is not appetizing to me to think that the guy I am seeing has had his dick in another girl's pussy just the night before. And the ones who are not playing their little games are complete total pussies that fall in love immediately.  Can we just have a medium?  Nope, that's asking for a little too much. 

So here's to all the boys that I have met.  Thank you for bringing me to this state of mind.  I don't miss you; I don't need you, and the sex wasn't that good.  But we did have lots of fun in the moment.  Until the next time, I will keep my legs closed and focus on what is important: family, money and success. 

I recommend you sluts do the same.