Acceptance and Rejection.

It's been a while.  I know and I am not sorry.  The truth is I haven't been inspired to write and I have been busy. 

So I wanted to write about acceptance and rejection.  My goal is to go to law school.  I worked for a year to take my LSATs and apply to all of the schools in California.  I was rejected by 95% of the school I applied to; I got accepted to one school and I am waiting for one more school to make my final decision.  Now that the time has come to make my choice, I have looked back at my accomplishments so far and my willingness to risk everything for a dream.  I have been a big risk taker.  I feel like I strive more so to be rejected than to be accepted.  I know it's crazy to say that, but it's the fucking truth.

So what to do now.  Well, I will focus on school.  I have rejected the idea of finding a man to leach off of in order to fulfill my fantasies.  And I have big fantasies.  So big that I can't fail.  Rejection to me is simply a challenge to prove someone/something wrong.  And I refuse to settle for the absolute bottom.  I refuse to settle for anything except excellence (complete and total acceptance).  I may take the unbeaten path, but I will find the way to the life I believe I deserve.

I have this poster board in my room that dictates some of things I believe in.  I look at it every morning when I wake up and I know what my expectations are as a person, as a human, as a great woman.  Some of the slogans, "Never hide,"  or "Regrets Nothing,"  only fuels my ambition to be great and make  a lot of money.  And money is very important.  It is the value that we humans use to determine the level of success a person reaches.  Rupert Murdoch may be a crazy fuck, but he's able to control the US media because of the amount of money he is able to bring and what he can do with it.  That's the power, ambition and selfishness I am talking about.  We reject his beliefs, but accept his product because of his power.  What am I talking about?

 So what's next?  Law school.  Then, the world.  Take a look at me everybody;  I have been accepted and will not accept rejection under any circumstances.